And The World Spins Madly On

"If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make a change."


Hi, Piece. 


I had fully intended to write a post yesterday, it being Valentine's Day and all, but I changed my mind. I don't want this blog to become an outlet for me to whine. There's no reason to give you the impression that I don't have a wonderful life. I do. I have an amazing family, fantastic friends, an education. A future. There's still time for me to figure out what I want and go get it. So tonight, Piece, I'm laying it all out. Right now, at this exact point in my life, this is what I want to do before the world goes spinning on without me.


First off, I want to graduate college. It may not sound too terribly fancy to anyone, but it's a big deal to me. My mom, who I love dearly, just got her Associate's degree this past December. She dropped out of college when she realized she had no idea what she wanted to do with her life. When I asked her about it, she told me that she never saw a point in wasting money pursuing an elusive major. She didn't know what she wanted to do then, but she figured it out. You should have seen my family when she became an official college graduate though. My mom was practically glowing, she was so happy. It was beautiful. 


I also want to travel. Everywhere. I want to learn languages and live oversees in the center of a phenomenal city. I want to be able to go to a foreign country and communicate with people so well that they can't tell I'm a stupid American. I want to learn about the culture and politics of other countries. I want to find similarities and differences between the people I know and the people I meet. I want to see the world.


I want to work as a political analyst. I want to live in another country and study their politics and report back to my employer in the US. I wouldn't mind being an journalist nor would I mind working for a government organization. I think I would love a job like that though.


I want to get my SCUBA diving license. I've gone twice in a swimming pool, but I think it would be amazing to dive at the Great Barrier Reef. Someday, I will.


I want to get my pilot's license. Ever since my first plane ride three years ago, I've been in love with flying. Call me crazy considering my fear of heights, but I felt so free, being so removed from everything. It's an amazing feeling. Almost like you're being liberated. Like you're being given permission to let everything go.


Eventually, if I can find the right guy, I want to get married. I'm not looking to do it anytime soon, but someday. Here's the thing though. I don't want to get married and "settle down". When I find my guy, he's travelling with me. Only after that, when we've run out of things to see, people to meet, and places to visit, will I start thinking about creating a family. I think I want kids, but I'm not certain. I have names picked out, but I'm not sure if I want to have kids myself. I suppose I'll decide if that time ever rolls around. 


I'd like to get a dog. I don't know why. Man's best friend, I guess. Someday though. It'll be a smart dog, too. Just you wait. Smart and adorable.


Lastly, I want to find happiness. I want to be so at peace with myself that I can't help but be happy. I'd like to love my job and love the city I'm in, love God and love my family. I want to love so much that I'm bursting with joy, and everyone I talk to knows it. I intend to be so happy that I can't help but shower the world with random acts of kindness so other people can share in my happiness. I'm going to be the crazy old lady who brings a foreign exchange student breakfast in bed, and uses new technology to chat with my old people friends, and buys flowers and leaves them on a random doorstep so the person who lives there knows they're loved by someone. 


There you are, Piece. This is what I want. This is what I hope to do with my life. And where do you come in, Piece? Are you waiting for me somewhere in those dreams? Will you point me in the right direction? Set me on course when I get lost? 


I not sure what the future holds, Piece, but wherever you are, I look forward to finding you. And fingers crossed, when I finally stumble onto you, I'll be ready for whatever you throw at me.


Goodnight, Piece. Thanks for everything.