"A conclusion is the place where you get tired of thinking."
Missing Piece,
I'm in a funk. I'm going to tell you why. I hope to keep this short because I'm busy, and I'm tired, and I want to crawl in a hole and never come out. I don't suppose that you want to hear about this at all, but I'm going to tell you anyway. Here I go.
While my family was visiting me at college yesterday, my dad informed me that he had a story about my little brother Evan. Evidently, Evan, all of 11 years old, walked into the kitchen (my dad was the only one in the room), and says, "Dad, can I talk to you about something?" Obviously, my dad panics because he thinks something terrible has happened or that he's going to have to have some super awkward talk with an 11-year-old, but Evan continues with some prompting.
"I'm going to the Homecoming dance."
"You are? Oh!"
"With Angela."
"Oh! Did she ask you or did you ask her?"
"I asked her."
Now, Piece, this is the part in the story where I went, "AWWWWWWW!!! THAT'S SO FREAKING CUTE! MY LITTLE BROTHER LIKES A GIRL! :D AND HE ASKED HER OUT! :D AND SHE'S NOT EVIL OR FREAKY OR SNOTTY! :D Oh, we sisters raised our little buddy right."
I was so freaking happy after hearing this story... until someone mentioned that my little brother, who I might add is nine (count them NINE) years younger than me, may very well have his first significant other before I do.
My little brother's homecoming dance is in six days. I have six days to find a boyfriend or my little brother will have a girlfriend before I've had a boyfriend. I feel like I'm going to vomit.
I'm going to go crawl in my hole now, Piece. Perhaps, you could be so kind as to throw down some bread or a blanket if I haven't crawled out in a couple of days.
Piece, I have concluded that it's going to take some major change of situation to get me out of the funk I'm in. I can't focus on homework. I don't want to go anywhere. I can't even manage to get out of bed today. This is so unlike me.
I need something to live for again. Something to throw myself into. Something that can consume me.
I need to find my missing piece, and I need to find it now.
